That night was a waste. The minute I got in the bar I quickly contemplated going back home again. I just waited for some time for Sassy Friend to show but that was another waste. He came in arm in arm with hiw new boytoy, quick to be proud of his newly found stud of the week, Alas, a night of dancing and getting drunk, that night was not.
So the minute they got around to the bar to get some drinks I made my escape. I started walking out and Sassy Friend didn't even notice me making my exit. I assume it's all because of his new boytoy. Hmm.. let's see how long this one's gonna last.
Instead of the usual cab ride home I considered walking the long distance to the bus route for a little time alone. I cenrtainly needed it. There has been so many times that I've been left alone by friends because of the prospect of sex. I've never done it myself (well, not recently) but I could never do it to them now. I mean I love my friends, but if this is how they're gonna treat me then I better learn how to cope in such situations by myself. This has happened so many times. I don't understand why I just can't realize that I shouldn't depend on my friends that much. Making out with some stranger just isn't gonna cut it as a way to cope.
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